Thoughts…..Wishing I was as captivating to you as the people who ignore you until they need something from you, or porn you watch & post incessantly about.   

I cannot bring myself to ignore you or not be there for you.  Perhaps I should. I may get to connect.

Reality is that I am captivating.  Every bit if not more so than who ignores you and with what you stimulate yourself with.  

The shame…  you’re missing your time with me. 

Perhaps in freeing myself of the opinion of others, I will find someone who will reciprocate the energy I invest and regard me favorably. 

Random Irritating Interesting things from various relationships.These are not examples of healthy relationships or situations. These examples are not monogamy and are not polyamory.  If anything they are examples of being on the receiving end of manipulations, poaching, and predatory behavior.

With as obnoxious as these situations are, I am grateful for them.  I learned a lot.  Especially in the areas of self worth and loving myself.

No one deserves to be treated this way.

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